Hello all. Christmas really doesn't suck, but the title got your
attention, didn't it? Anyway, here I am back with another round of
random thoughts for your perusing. Enjoy.
- Regarding what I'm
dealing with...still in the evaluating phase, though I did get some
insight to chew on (not all of it wanted) which leads to the next
blurb...
- I went up to Akron last weekend to visit my family. I
decided to stay overnight because the weather was pretty warm on Friday
and it seemed like a good day to travel. I also had a great turkey
dinner, since I missed Thanksgiving (Thanks, Mom). Anyway...after a
conversation with one particular family member, I discovered (amongst
other things, some I won't mention here) that there were more people
than I thought having trouble seeing me as I am now, which I really
didn't want to hear about but perhaps I needed to. Apparently it
reflects similar circumstances as other people I've talked about in the
past, but something became clearer to me as I was dealing with this.
When I encounter my friends, family, co-workers (when I have them), or
even complete strangers, it really hasn't been for very long periods of
time...maybe a couple hours a week, a month or even years, maybe a phone
call or email every once in a while, or even if they are just reading
this blog. I've discovered that since I generally keep to myself and am
sometimes in my own world (even when I lived in Akron or with a
roommate), those windows of opportunity to see changes in me or even as I
truly am are more limited than I had realized. That makes it difficult
for people who sporadically hear from me or see me (which includes most
people I know) to be sure or believe I'm not the same person I was when
I probably last saw them. Not many people would know off-hand that I
became a born-again Christian or even an OSU graduate unless they were
there when it happened or I told them. Understandably, how each
circumstance and others have changed me would be difficult to tell if it
appears to people that I'm supposedly acting the same as the last time
they saw me. Maybe I am acting the same and maybe I'm not, but for
those doubters who don't know, I can only rely on faith and that the
truth is there for them to see if they wish to. I believe the only one
who sees all the changes I've made is the good Lord above, because He is
the only one who knows all of what I've been through...or a long time
girlfriend or wife would, if either ever happens for me.
- Regarding the similar circumstances I mentioned in the last
blurb...quickie reminder, I'm talking about some accusing me of seeing
and treating people as they were back in the day and not as they are
now. For those who still think this, I guess I can say at this point to
be careful that you don't do that yourselves.
- Someone asked
me a while back why I "go through all this trouble" when describing or
dealing with this type of stuff, including things I've talked about in
previous blogs and the long explanations and stuff. Well, doing it this
way for me is "small potatoes", so to speak, and I understand that not
everybody does things this way with the possibility that some aren't
even capable of it. On the flip side, there are methods and ways others
get things done that I'm not capable of myself regardless of how "easy"
some may think them to be...different strokes for different folks. I
believe if you have all the facts and all the tools necessary laid out
on the table, then resolutions and solutions will come faster and with
more certainty of a good outcome...but that's just my belief.
- My blurbs get "long" sometimes, don't they....heh heh heh.
- Football: the Browns have the players...they need a new coaching
staff and less injuries, maybe some different players too but not as
many as the last time they needed to rebuild. Heck, they have Pro
Bowlers this season so not everything is lost even though this season
is.
- I hope everybody's enjoying the Christmas TV
programming...there seems to be more diversity than in years past and I
am enjoying a lot of what's on this year as a result.
- Even
though I celebrated this holiday already with my parents, I am going to
be celebrating Christmas with some of my friends, the people who I do
consider family, on the actual day itself. This is a first for me and I
am looking forward to it.
- I do have "default" plans for New
Years Eve, but if anybody has something potentially more spectacular, on
the cheap, and something I can also bring my friends to, I'm all for
it. Please let me know before the new year arrives.
- Basketball: boy the Cavaliers are kicking butt this year. Best start
for the team, I think, and I wasn't even going to pay attention...go
figure.
- Word of the day: presbylutheranism. I got that from
the Simpsons...it's the denomination of Rev. Lovejoy's church. Try to
say that five times fast.
Now, I think I better get out of here
before some holy war breaks out with one side chanting "Cowabunga!" and
the other yelling "Eat my shorts!" If I don't hear from you or see you
beforehand, I want to wish you a Merry Christmas and hope you are
enjoying your time with your families and friends this holiday
season...with the country and economy as they are currently we need
both. Take care and God Bless.
DJ
